o/' You go there you're gone forever, I go there I lose my way, we stay here we're not together, anywhere is... o/'

Though it may come as somewhat of a shock, I'm listening to Enya right now. "What? Not Queen?!" you say. I know! I'm just as shocked as you are.

Ho hum... a very dull day, yet again. But I did get the DNA site updated - whoop! Take a look if you have a mo'. ( http://www.lunaestas.com/doctorwho/bus ) I think I'm going to bug David (the "David" in David's New Adventures [DNA]) to write me into a story sometime soon, cos golly, it got really old really fast working on the site. I just copied and pasted and fixed the pages and stuff and it was *soooo tedious* and took several hours today to finish, cos most of it was just technical work. So I just listened to Queen II for several hours on end and got through it. *whew*

I mean, I love working on websites, but when it's not exactly fun to work on because it's not your own work cos you're designing for someone else, it just tends to get a bit boring to work on for hours and hours. It's not like I have anything better to do, of course! It's either design the site or twiddle my thumbs all day.

In other news... I rejoined OG (Outpost Gallifrey) in a moment of weakness, really. I thought "What the heck" and signed back up. You see, I'd drifted away from the forum, and thought I'd probably never return because it's so dang hard to keep up with forum talk. I love Doctor Who, but I really don't have much to say about it anymore. I posted 400+ times in the old OG forum, and I doubt I'll reach that count in the new one.

Posting in OG was a unique time in my life. Rather, it was part of a unique time in my life. I started posting there at the height of my obsession, continued posting through CBT, then continued posting after that. There were lots of memories and inside jokes that the other posters probably don't cherish like I do - those memories and jokes really sustained me during that time and I clung on to them (and Doctor Who, I should mention) like a security blanket. After the CBT, I began to be able to really function again and I no longer needed that security blanket, and I began posting less and less until I just stopped. Even poor Doctor Who has been pushed aside a bit. It was there when I needed something to focus on and now that I'm so much better, I need the comfort of Doctor Who less and less. During my obsession, I was as much obsessed with my fear as I was with Doctor Who! But that was my coping mechanism. I'll forever have sentimental, fond memories of watching Doctor Who, but now that I'm OK, I don't need that coping mechanism.

It's a good thing, I suppose, this not being as fanatical about Who as I once was. It signals a change in me: like I said, I no longer need a coping mechanism. That feels good. But at the same time, I'm sad that I don't seem to have that insane interest in the show as I used to. I still enjoy watching it (well, the Fourth Doctor stories, at least) and reading about it and reading novels of it, and basically enjoy the whole idea of "Doctor Who", but... not to the extent that I once enjoyed it.

I'm sure that mini-rant above was a bit confusing, considering I've never mentioned an "obsession" or "CBT" before in this blog. I'm not going to explain it, because I'd make a mess of it! Suffice it to say that I suffered from a very difficult obsession for about a year and a half, and was able to overcome it through cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT). I still have OCD; blimey, do I ever, but not like that. Not anymore. :)

Sorry about this semi-somber post, but... I dunno. All right, now for some icons. Kylie and Dannii today! Poor Dannii hasn't gotten a look-in at all yet on my blog, so it's about time. :)

Take 'em and love 'em. :) I should explain about the Kylie icons: One day I opened a pic of Kylie I had saved, and a dialog box popped up saying that the image had been truncated, blah blah blah. Well, turns out that's pretty cool, because in PhotoShop I kept clicking on the image and fiddling with it and it would come up with some crazy images - it would smush (technical term) a bunch of pictures from the folder I had saved it in to create "blends" of pictures. That made no sense, but... um... enjoy. :)

That's all for now!

Cheery bye, Scarlett




//Listening to:
Caribbean Blue (Enya)
//Currently amused by this quote:
nothin', sorry!